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Deborah Demander's avatar

Wow. Words cannot express the depth of my sorrow for your profound loss. Peace be with you.

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Nikki's avatar

My heart goes out to you and all that loved your beloved Matt. Know that you and your son are in my thoughts and prayers! Thank you for sharing your heart with us. May grace, peace, and love surround you always, but especially close in these challenging days! May you find that a long and loving shower helps you in your grief. My little brother (only sibling) died 7 years ago, he was 41. I heard many say that their hearts break during times like that. For me, I felt mine burst into a million pieces. I felt everything... everyone's everything, it seemed, too. It was an absolute beast! I had no choice but to ride the ride... believing that God doesn't make mistakes. That somehow, someway, it was my brother's time. My human brain couldn't/can't fully understand everything, but I could live on in ways that he couldn't and what he taught me. Self-love and acceptance and forgiveness to others and for ourselves... that's what my brother teaches me. Big hugs and loads of love! From a "friend" from a far and another "Nik" :-)

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Nicole Sciacca's avatar

thank you for this and I'm so very sorry for your loss as well...look for him in your daily life and let that offer you some comfort.

xx

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Nikki's avatar

Thank you ♥️ Yesterday would have been his 49th birthday! I felt (and even smelled, at one point!) him with me! Cheers, Scotty 🍻!

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Julie McDonald's avatar

I am so very sorry for the loss you, Beau, and all of your friends and family, and the universe in general has experienced.

And your words touched me so very much that I find myself crying. I know a lot of us are virtual strangers but we all share a connection that you created through fitness and health and that connection often included Matt. During lockdown you posted so many candid and hilarious videos that helped that connection to grow.

I just want to express that as one of these strangers in your life my heart breaks for all of you. And 12/12 is also my grandsons’s birthday. And now I’ll always remember Matt on this day, too.

Thank you for sharing these thoughts and memories of your life with Matt. I’m sure this was difficult and yet therapeutic.

And may grace and love wrap you up and comfort you when you need it most ❤️

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Nicole Sciacca's avatar

Oh wow Julie...thank you so much and YAY 12/12. I'm glad we brought you some joy during lockdown and beyond. Big hugs...

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Jen's avatar

Tears. I am so moved by you, by Beau, by Matt. Every word that you have written is so packed with love. Your best self is steering your grief and you are sharing it with us. Thank you for being so generous and so beautiful through this tremendous loss, and from what it sounds like, an incredible path of walking with Matt still, just in a new way..no longer together here on earth, but now in spirit.

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Nicole Sciacca's avatar

He is definitely still with me and thank you for being YOU. xx

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Catmac's avatar

I am thinking about you with an immense amount of love, Nicole and Beau. This is the most beautiful testimonial and perspective we could wish to see from someone who has lost the love of their life. Thank you for keeping on and shining your light despite the darkness, you are an example to all of us. And you're right: Matt is still and always with you. Keep going. xoxoxo

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Nicole Sciacca's avatar

appreciate this and you so much!!

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Sarah Ezrin's avatar

Thank you for sharing this with us. We love you so much

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Nicole Sciacca's avatar

love you

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Todd Galbraith's avatar

I’m so glad I stumbled upon you. I am a huge fan of your writing and your being, from my invisible place.

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Nicole Sciacca's avatar

Oh wow. Thank you Todd...

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