Medium Curious

Remember when I used to a talk about mobility and fitness...

I still do.

Like a lot.

But Whole Person Fitness is mind, body, and SPIRIT. As you’re well aware, different chapters require a different focus.

This grief journey is (from what I’m gathering) unraveling for a greater good.

Meaning, I have to talk about this process.

Apparently you (or a few hundred of you) are finding some sliver of peace in this one-way, typed out conversation; as raw and spiritually curious as it’s turning out to be.

The number of mediums I’ve now been in contact with is INCREDIBLE.

Y’all. I’ve never had a sitting with a medium until my life altering phone call with Laura Lynne Jackson. Read my sub stack “Two Hours of Awe…some” if you haven’t yet. Btw, Laura Lynn asked if Matt, Beau, and I could be included in her 3rd book. I squealed. When I think about having his legacy in print, I get full body chills.

The last 2 months have been so intense.

As it turns out, I know quite a few ‘closet mediums’. Consciously or unconsciously I’ve opened a channel and have become a magnet for clients, friends, and acquaintances that are delivering messages from my darling Matt with breathtaking accuracy and timing. I must give credit where credit is due, Matt is masterful at connecting from the other side.

IT’S SO SATISFYING.

That being said, last weekend was less than awesome only because a part of me that has always been excitable and energized, positive and jazzed on life, feels paralyzed. That spark is still here but the heat is so

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Sunday I was enjoying my drive home from teaching my beautiful, amazing yoga students and then just fell into a deep tearful, sadness around my loss. I was listening to the We Don’t Die podcast (recommended by one of you - thank you) and I just made this half spoken, half mumbled declaration that if God could please bring my joy back, I’d swear to investigate grief and how to rise like a phoenix while unpacking the heaviness of your loved one’s absence.

Not even an hour later I received a What’s App voice memo from my friend Nicole T. (a closet medium) where she shared, through her own tears, the most perfectly timed Matt download. She had been out on the beach, listening to worship music and sitting in an open meditative state. She said she closed her eyes and Matt, whose appeared to her frequently, came to her surrounded in what she described as vibrant, holy white light.

He was with God. Arms out full of energy, quizzing God (this is VERY on brand for Matt Hobbie. Lots of questions. This guy never backed down. Why. Why. Why.) His message for her was to please share with me that God and Christ consciousness are so very real and I’m not alone. She explained he was asking God to please bring me more peace. This was exactly the subtext of my thoughts all weekend long, not to mention the whispered request I’d made less than hour before.

The song that was playing during her vision/download was beautiful. Please take a moment to listen to it here. I’ve been playing it on repeat.

Gracious in the fight of it.

Humbled at the height of it.

Choose to love in spite of it all.

Questioning the why of it.

Rise up in the light of it.

I’ll be by your side in it all.

I’m cheering you on.

*This is the image Nicole sent me explaining this is what Matt looked like in her vision. This guy doesn’t have Matt’s legendary calves but I’m here for it.

Deep down I hear this knowing that “there is not much for you in the dark, sad, woe is me” of this journey. It’s a necessary part of healing.

It HAS to happen - I’m not denying that. I don’t have to like it though.

Maybe you’ve heard of hypnotherapist Marisa Peer. I did a Mind Valley course with her years ago and this weekend I saw a clip of her and Vishen speaking to the critical importance of your thoughts. She explained:

“If your mind’s job is to make your thoughts real then your job is to make your thoughts better, all the time.”

There is data and evidence all around the placebo effect and you can find examples literally everywhere. I can think my way into a darker, lonelier place or I can actively celebrate his life, cherish mine, and serve others. I can believe in my healing and if I’m honest, I sincerely do!!

This is par for course in my grief journey. I feel my energy as a ripple from the inside out…maybe this is my bio field / aura at work. I have heard that our bio field is a gateway, like a membrane. When we’re attuned our bio field will allow what comes in and what is not welcome. Getting clear is the first step. When we make strong intentions with heightened emotion we can attract or repel whatever we choose. I know it’s valuable to do this through journaling and kinetic movement as well. <insert my 3 minute dance breaks in class>

I strive for true authenticity of self and that’s why these weekly emails sound the way they do. Frankly, I don’t know how to do it any other way. The most authentic Nicole Sciacca will share with you the dark and the light because it’s necessary. My desire is to close the gap for myself and for anyone who wants to come along.

Every time I speak with a medium or come across a sign from Matt, I’m reminded that it’s not that serious. Never forget those were Matt’s exact words to me when he came to me in a dream.

“Death is not that serious” - Matt Hobbie.

Can you believe this guy … the audacity. LOL

What I choose to take in is that some version of life continues.

Consciousness, no matter what you’ve been raised to believe, continues.

God is real.

Love is everything.

Be kind.

Stay curious.

OKAYILOVEYOUBYEEE,

xx

Nic.

ps. Classes this week:

Tuesday (today) QUICKIE YOGA 12-12:30pm pst. $10. This is a well rounded, accessible yoga flow paired with music that includes mobility work and a 5 minute savasana. It’s meant to be a community offering at $10 a class and if you need financial assistance, just reach out. Hope to see you soon. Sign up here.

Wednesday UPPER BODY STRENGTH 6:30-7:05am pst. $20. This is part of my November Fit program but open for anyone to drop in. The group energy is excellent and we begin and end with CARs, strength train and sweat it out with friends. Bring lighter and heavier weights and maybe a chair if you have one. This is a quick and perfect way to prepare for Thanksgiving shennanigans. Sign up here.

Friday POST TURKEY YOGA FLOW 7:30-8:05am pst. $20. This is part of my November Fit program but open to anyone who wants to shake off the turkey fest. It will be a sweaty, fun, music based, gratitude filled class and I’d be honored to see you there. All levels welcome. Sign up here.

pps. December Fit is right around the corner and is open for registration. One thing I can guarantee this December is that I’ll be moving ONE DAY AT A TIME and loving myself through it. If you resonate with that kinda vibe, we got you. There are 12 classes in the program this month. Eight strength and 4 yoga flows. All classes are just 35 minutes. You’ll make time for yourself and be better for it - mark my words. Learn more here and let’s do our best to send 2023 off with gratitude.

ppps. In years past, I’ve sent a big Black Friday email with all my favorite brands and any discounts they’re offering. I get a kick back on some, others I do not. Take a peek below. I swear by ALL OF THESE brands and products.

• Prolon. A fasting mimicking program that comes in a 5 day kit, one day reset and delicious individual shakes that help optimize cellular function and work to trick the body into a fasted state even though you’re consuming specially formulated bars, soups, shakes, etc. I’ve done the full 5 day fast SEVEN times and the One Day reset multiple times. It’s brilliant. Every round is different but the belly bloat, brain fog, irregular sleep, energy dump and sugar cravings all recalibrate in the best possible way. Use THIS LINK and code NICOLEFMD for maximum savings. This is the biggest sale they offer. Grab it now for post Turkey time or for the new year.
  

• The Ayurveda Experience has the besssst face serums and body oils ever. I don’t have a code but the deals are sweet right now. I’ve been using them for years (thanks Nina D) and this is a huge sale. My favorite products are the Day & Night oil, Poreslay, and BlackGram body booster. The ingredients are clean, the packaging is stunning and the results are magic-sauce.

• SPLITS59 makes great leggings and sports bras and I live in them. I’ve been an OG super fan since 2011. The Air Weight tights are my absolute favorite. This is also a brand that has incredible respect for their collaborators and went out of their way on multiple accounts to check in on me after Matt passed.

• NeuroHacker QUALIA MIND…the rocket fuel for my life. LOL. Their Black Friday special is 75% OFF, that’s only $39 a bottle and use code NICOLE at checkout for an extra 15% off your purchase! Go to neurohacker.com/nicole , enter NICOLE, try it for 3 days and watch what happens. This is a product I’ve loved and have stood behind for years now. So thrilled this discount is up for grabs…LMK if you have questions. This brand is eager to educate the public and that’s one of my favorite qualities about them.

• Farm Rio. I have no affiliation but if anybody wants to hook me up, I’d be forever grateful. I live for their Black Friday sale because this stuff is not cheap. As I always say “Farm Rio makes the clothes I always dreamed of but never knew existed.” Take a peek…